Sunday
It's been a strange sort of day. I've been pottering about but, to be honest, have started quite a few jobs and failed to complete any of them. Never mind, there's always tomorrow!
A friend from the band has just left after a flying visit and another will be phoning tonight (hopefully not when the Harry Potter film is on TV!). From things that were said I half get the feeling that they are putting my decision down to ill health, which isn't the case at all, so it'll be interesting to hear what is said when the other one phones tonight. Even after a few days for it all to sink in I feel it is the right decision for me at this point in my life.
Moving on ... I am concentrating on adding a few events to the diary so that I have things to look forward to. I've been looking for something for the end of October but no success so far. November will be better with a trip to London to see the Tutankhamen exhibition and there are a couple of things going on in Bristol which sound like fun if I can get tickets. I used to do a lot of things on my own, quite happily, but I seem to have drifted away from that and I'm trying to work out if that change is in some way underlying how I'm feeling ... not true depression but a constant 'things are not right' feeling that I want and need to turn around.
[Aarghh!! Half my post has just disappeared. I won't try to rewrite it but will add the missing info to tomorrow's post.]
I think we all have times when we feel down and don't want to make the effort to do things.You have recently made a major decision and it will take time to readjust.Do you have U3A in your area.Trying something completely different might be what you need.As I get olderI certainly feel more anxious about things and less confident.I am sure this phase will soon pass.Fingers crossed it is soon but you are not on your own.Love Barbarax
ReplyDeleteYes, we have U3A here and I have tried some things with them in the past. For various reasons this hasn't been successful and I found that a lot of the groups are poorly attended. It's on my list to try the U3A in Bath which appears to be thriving and may offer more choices.
DeleteGetting started on a variety of jobs is good, even if you didn't finish them. Now you can work on them, over the week, and complete them. :)
ReplyDeleteI suppose the band members are puzzling over why you'd want to leave and ill health might sound like the most plausible reason, to them. At least, they are concerned enough to check on you. :)
I think, as we get older, we feel more reluctant to do things on our own; it is more fun to share an experience with another person or group of friends. I guess we are all social creatures, even when we sometimes prefer to be on our own.
I think the majority of them understand why I reached the decision to leave but one woman has completely misunderstood the situation - she never quite hears the same conversation as everyone else. I'd like to stay in touch with a couple of them though.
DeleteDon't you hate it when that happens (posts disappearing).
ReplyDeleteIf you feel that things are not right, then they aren't. I'm sure there's things around that will fill that gap, the trick is to be patient until they land on your doorstep (or you find their door and knock).
WVwn when living alone, some things are hard without company. As Bless said, we are sociable at heart, even if we also enjoy being on our own.
xx
There may have been a tantrum when the end of the post disappeared!
DeleteI don't plan to rush into anything and will try to arrange things to do with different groups of people to completely change the way I socialise.