Saturday

My auntie passed peacefully at 3 am yesterday morning, surrounded by her daughters and grandchildren.

I ventured out to post sympathy cards to my cousins and, as the postbox is over halfway to the canal,  intended to carry on for a walk but it wasn't as warm as I was expecting so I shelved that idea for another day and hurried home to my snuggle blanket!

I cooked up the apples my sister gave me and have frozen individual portions of apple sauce to have with pork, and spiced apple and sultanas to have on top of porridge or maybe on pancakes. 

Today, yet again, I have nothing arranged. I'm enjoying the relaxed way of living but am not as productive as I need/want to be, so after my staycation I think I'll look at making some changes. I'll be meeting L on Monday for coffee at the garden centre (and probably some retail therapy) and will meet up with J later in the week for a meal. I feel much less anxious about this than I thought I would, so it may be that some of the changes I make after the staycation will involve more face to face social meets with individuals or in small groups. It feels that it's time to test the water, so to speak.

So anyway, today I feel a bit down and weepy. I know the reason and it's understandable but this is one of those times when it's not easy living on my own. I'm sure to find something to do ... I just don't know what!